Long Time, No See

Okay, I know it has been a long time...like 3 months, long time!  But things have been crazy around here!  Remember we were supposed to move?  We did.  But not where we had originally planned.  We were planning to move to WY so my hubby could work in the oil field.  But that didn't work out.

My in-laws sold the house they have lived in for about 30 years and bought a much bigger one...with a basement that used to be an apartment, but the last owners converted it into a movie theater room.  So we moved in to help them change it back into an apartment.  We are closer to hubby's new job, so he doesn't have to waste so much time in stupid Utah construction traffic.  Which, incidentally, he is working on now, so I can't say too much bad about it, it pays the bills!

The thing that has really kept me away lately has been my health.  I think I mentioned before that I was having killer migraines all the time.  I was diagnosed with Chronic Migraines in May and they still haven't found any medications that stop it.  Then I had an ear ache in August and went to an InstaCare.  They said I have Chronic Blockage of the Eustachian Tube (the tube that runs between your ears.  You know when you fly or drive up in the mountains and you feel like you need to pop you ears?  I feel like that all the time....yeah. NOT FUN!)  They told me I need to have tubes put in my ears, like they do for little kids.  But my insurance doesn't cover it, so I have to just suck it up until we get insurance that does.

Then to top things off, things got really crazy the Saturday before last.  I had been running around like a mad woman for over  a week, trying to put the finishing touches on this sweet girl's 4th birthday party:

 

Isn't she adorable?  Can you guess what her party was by the shirt?

More on that later!

Anyway, it was finally party time and things were going great.  The party really came together.  Everyone was having fun.  I ran upstairs to get the candles and suddenly had a pain in my chest and felt faint.

I made it through the weekend feeling pretty weak and tired.  I figured I was just worn out from the party.  But by Tuesday I was still feeling lousy.  The hubby convinced me to go to the ER when I nearly passed out doing laundry.  2 hours, 1 EKG, 1 CT Scan, and 1 blown IV (again, NOT FUN!) later, they decided that there was something wrong with my heart, it wasn't blood clots in my heart or lungs, but whatever it was eluded them.  They did say, however, that it wasn't life threatening, so I could go home and follow up with my primary care physician and to call him immediately if I started to run a fever.  Thursday afternoon I got in to see my doctor.  They listened to my heart and said, yes, it was acting pretty weird.  So they sent me home with a 24 hour stress test heart monitor.

The dr. office called me back Saturday afternoon to tell me that they had looked at the results of the test and decided that I had at least 10 incidents of elevated heart beat and several times where it dropped really low.  So they want me to meet with a cardiologist next Monday to decide what is wrong and where to go from here.

In the mean time?  Between my hubby and father-in-law hovering over me ( love you both tons! :) ) I am definitely taking it easy.  The upside?  I can catch up on some blog posts, clean out my google reader (I went from 610 to 0 on Saturday), and get started on my mile long Christmas gift making list.  Not to mention the 4 Halloween Costumes I need to make and the fall dresses I need to finish.  So anyway, it looks like I'm back on the radar.  I have a few things that I have made over the summer but never found the time to blog, so you can look forward to seeing:

• Chey's 4th Birthday Party
• School Picture Dresses
• Daddy Did It Bunk Beds
• and a few other things that have left my brain at the moment.
• Oh, and I have been going through my pictures and found some things that I made pre-blog that I thought would be fun to share.

So, See you around...soon!  I promise!

A Down & Out Kind of Day

Anyone else out there ever had one of those days where you just feel down?  I got out of bed this morning feeling crappy.  I was up most of the night with a sick stomach.  And most of the rest of night, I was dreading the kids catching this bug I have.  Not fun.

I just finished a reading this post.  I was almost in tears by the end.  Not that it is really THAT emotional a post.  Just that it pretty well hit spot on how I have been feeling lately.

I wish I could say that my family is always dressed, hair done, smiles on their faces.

I wish I could say that the house is always clean, the dishes always done,

and the kids were always in bed on time.

I wish that my life looked like what all my fellow blogger's lives look like.

Spotless, peaceful, beautiful.

But in reality, my life is always a mess.

I am not good at keeping the house clean.  I HATE doing laundry.

And despite the fact that I have four little girls,

there is usually a fight going on at our house.

I am thankful for the Lord and all that He does for me.

I am thankful for the post that I mentioned earlier.

It reminded me that I am not alone.

It gave me the courage to be proud of who I am, faults and all.

And it made my day seem a little less awful.

She had the strength and faith to tell the world what she believes.

I  in turn, am going to let you all know what I believe.

I am a daughter of our Heavenly Father.

He is always there for me.

He knows what I am going through because he has gone through it for me already.

He knows that my life is messy and not always a bowl of sunshine.

He is rooting for me when things are good,

and is there to lift me up when I am feeling down.

He is my Savior.

Thanks for being the awesome people that you are.

Thanks for contributing to my crafty side, and listening to my blubbery side. 

(Yes, I am bawling like a baby right now!)

Thanks for reading this post and letting me stick my neck out there.

 I'm not very good at expressing my emotions.